Yesterday, I had this perfect blog, well perfect in my eyes but as I started typing it up I found it just wasn’t flowing. So, here I am writing something totally new. Okay here it goes, my story on a small gift but holds so much value to me I call her, 'The Notebook'. Two years ago I had loss my job and was at a point in my life where I wanted to give up on my passions and dreams. I just did not feel I had what it took to make it as a blogger nor a filmmaker. I just wanted to get a new job and forget all about my illusion that would never become a reality. But this all changed when I was not expecting it. My sister from another mother and travel sista, Tabitha tells me she had something for me. She starts to tell me how she sees so much in me and then she pulls out this personalized notebook with 4 pictures of me representing the four elements of the earth, water, earth, water and fire on it. As she started to breakdown what each picture signified my eyes begin to water in gratitude. When she finished my mind changed that I would not give up on myself. I would not quit on my passion and dreams. I would not let my lack of confidence and fear cause me to not build on my desires. After that day I started working towards the things I loved and that were a part of me. I got back into film school. I started back journal-ling.
Here we are two years later and I am a blogger and starting independent screenwriter/filmmaker. This tablet has been my gem every time I started to doubt myself or feel a sense of fear I pulled it out as a reminder I got this. I carried my notebook everywhere. Basically, I never left home without. lol! I was using my tablet for everything it was no longer just a journal where I shared my deepest thoughts but my book for notes, schedules, budgeting,...... I found myself pulling it out all the time and carrying it almost everywhere I went too. Now that the pages are practically filled I know soon she will be placed in my sacred place for memories. But as she comes to an end I will say over these two years I have accomplished some serious milestones with her. I truly give thanks for my sister from another mother. I give thanks for Tabitha believing in me. I give thanks for such a small gift that had a major impact in my life. This notebook represents each element of myself and I will always cherish it. Through something so small I have accomplished a new milestone in my life. My friend, my sister she really put thought into it. I am really going to miss my notebook but know when great things come to an end something even greater awaits and I am ready to receive it.
Today, I want to leave with you all with never give up on you. If you are passionate about it go for it. Passions is nothing but a component of our purpose and as we walk in our passions this is where we find our purpose. Ase`/Amon/Amen
